Trust
In relations to the previous latest updated post..i tell you why am I a good actress. Firstly, I lied to Her without batting an eye. I acted as if I don't know anything about them. I acted blur when I tried to ask about her and him. It must so convincing that she thinks that I am blatantly jealous.WHen i see her, I just feel so disappointed in her, I will start to remember what she wrote about me in her diary. I think I could brushed it off. She obviously could not see my disappointed.
DEarest M, how stupid or blur do you think I am?? I kept your diary, because I wanted to be updated with your feelings. Because, i wanted to be there, when you needed someone. ANd this was even before I knew Dear dear and i know that you liked him. I not trying to act noble. I was trying to be your friend. Oh, isn't there anyway, we can salvage this friendship? Because, i know there won't be any, if you knew. That's why i am tried to avoid telling you the truth. Although, so many times in anger, I wanted to, because I wanted to spite you back.
LUckily, dear dear is there to stop me. I am denial if i say I don't want to let you know. I think you just have to find about it yourself. because, I am tired... of protecting your feelings and end up hurting mine. If you say, you could read my character like a book. Then read that, I am disappointed and angry with your words. Read that, I tried backing off , letting the two of you get together. BUt, realise that, I Reallie love him. That, I prayed time and time again, for myself to be happy for you and him before that.For that is my true character. -End
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I defintely didn't give people the impression, i have creditbility to do any simple thing. I am disappointed. Where's Trust? I really hate myself. I can't do anything. Maybe, one thing I am good at. Too caring....nitez
DEarest M, how stupid or blur do you think I am?? I kept your diary, because I wanted to be updated with your feelings. Because, i wanted to be there, when you needed someone. ANd this was even before I knew Dear dear and i know that you liked him. I not trying to act noble. I was trying to be your friend. Oh, isn't there anyway, we can salvage this friendship? Because, i know there won't be any, if you knew. That's why i am tried to avoid telling you the truth. Although, so many times in anger, I wanted to, because I wanted to spite you back.
LUckily, dear dear is there to stop me. I am denial if i say I don't want to let you know. I think you just have to find about it yourself. because, I am tired... of protecting your feelings and end up hurting mine. If you say, you could read my character like a book. Then read that, I am disappointed and angry with your words. Read that, I tried backing off , letting the two of you get together. BUt, realise that, I Reallie love him. That, I prayed time and time again, for myself to be happy for you and him before that.For that is my true character. -End
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I defintely didn't give people the impression, i have creditbility to do any simple thing. I am disappointed. Where's Trust? I really hate myself. I can't do anything. Maybe, one thing I am good at. Too caring....nitez
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