Foul Mood
Fri:28th Oct 2005
I was whining still, after i left for school. Cherise made my day, she allows me to whine the whole day... ha ha..Dear Dear went for the chalet. I was singing happily with Cherise, 60 over english songs.. ha haI was pretty pissed lah.. YOU KNOW what I am pIssed about ok, HOR!I deliberately made a call to Dear Dear. I didn't let it ring too long.. After a while, My anger subsided, And I wished I hadn't made the call. I was afraid M's collegues cum good friend might see.
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Sat: 29th OCt 2005,
Waited for his call for one bloody whole day. Luckily, was in the accompanion of Chris and Cherise. (notice all my friends' start with C?) Their companion distracted my impatience waiting for his call.After that, I went to celebrate HuiYan's birthday. Couldn't wait.. I send him, a made up forwarded msg.. ( I thought, he read between the lines. apparently NOT)He msged me back when I was at Mdm's Wong. Explained to me, he was canoeing, and have left his handphone in his bag.. Didn't make me very happy either. BUT, I still choose to brush it offAnd I danced the night away..
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30th Oct 2005
I was awaken early by Ar, then i went back to sleep again. Meet her at Harbour FRont and went down to M's chalet.
SOmeThings never changed, I reminded them it was Alex's birthday. ANd i was teased by them once and again.
They called him. I don't know why must KT, asked that question, if Alex wants to talk to me. I felt angry. Because, he doesn't want to talk to me. I felt hurt and angry because, I didn't feel like talking to him either. Up till now, they still so insensitive.
KT, passed the phone to Ar, and they start teasing me about me being single. (They don't know I am with Dear Dear) So guess what, Ar said? She says I can't forget him, that's why I broke up with J. I got super pissed. If she joked with someone like who don't take it into heart and don't believe. I won't mind.
But, to joke to such extend, and to a person whom I had a fling and didn't had a good ending. And who might think that is really true about what Ar says. I think is SUper insensitive.
Went down to M's chalet. Surprisingly. i still could face her with guilt free.
We were all reminiscing about the good old days in Coffee CLub. ANd we were teasing kelvin and Jia Miao . lol..
I stayed over to accompany M. ANd Soo Hoon came over to sleep at don't know what time..
The next day, we bladed and i fell many times. Seriously, at that time, I FeLt so insecure. I felt how come That M is able to do everything better than me. ANd she has everything better than me. Why did Dear Dear choose me instead.
I can tell you, I felt like crying many times. I felt like crying when M talks openly to Dear Dear, and smiling happily to herself. I feel like crying when I wanted to see Dear Dear, but I had to wait the next day and make sure that she is not alone, then I was able to go off.
I felt like crying when I missed Dear Dear so much and he was at her Chalet and I wasn't able to see him.
I felt like crying when I saw the photos, that she put up at Yahoo. But I am jealous about those photos where dear dear took close to her.
I can take the hurt buried inside, because of my guilt towards her.
BUt how long more do I have to wait?
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On the brighter note, Dear Dear accompanied me one whole day. I don't why, but i Just like feel like seeing and seeing without gettin sick of him. I like looking at his eyes and the sparks he gave me, for my eyes only.. ha ha..
I kinda make him angry yesterday, but estimating the time wrongly and promising him that i WON't be late.. I think i need to do something about myself liao.. BUt kind of glad that he's angry. NOt that I want to make him angry.
BEcause, i think in a relationship, bound to have ups and downs. So, i think my relationship has only been happy times together. The fact that he is angry, is part and parcel of a trial of a relationship and that only will make our relationship stronger.
Dear Dear and I went to eat Marina Bay steamboat. Fustrated with the service there. and we had to kill those live prawns. I feel so sad.. sobz...
We played archard and headed for Mr Bean and we sat and talked about our future. Today, it's been kind funny. I finally ran out of topic to talk to Dear Dear. And I went talking about The Chalet.... Well. I wasn't really happy about that mah...
And suddenly, I also realised that.. Between me and Dear dear, i can don't talk to him and still feel happy..
ha ha ..
going to sleep Liao..
And i finally finished part (a) of my assignment...
I was whining still, after i left for school. Cherise made my day, she allows me to whine the whole day... ha ha..Dear Dear went for the chalet. I was singing happily with Cherise, 60 over english songs.. ha haI was pretty pissed lah.. YOU KNOW what I am pIssed about ok, HOR!I deliberately made a call to Dear Dear. I didn't let it ring too long.. After a while, My anger subsided, And I wished I hadn't made the call. I was afraid M's collegues cum good friend might see.
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Sat: 29th OCt 2005,
Waited for his call for one bloody whole day. Luckily, was in the accompanion of Chris and Cherise. (notice all my friends' start with C?) Their companion distracted my impatience waiting for his call.After that, I went to celebrate HuiYan's birthday. Couldn't wait.. I send him, a made up forwarded msg.. ( I thought, he read between the lines. apparently NOT)He msged me back when I was at Mdm's Wong. Explained to me, he was canoeing, and have left his handphone in his bag.. Didn't make me very happy either. BUT, I still choose to brush it offAnd I danced the night away..
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30th Oct 2005
I was awaken early by Ar, then i went back to sleep again. Meet her at Harbour FRont and went down to M's chalet.
SOmeThings never changed, I reminded them it was Alex's birthday. ANd i was teased by them once and again.
They called him. I don't know why must KT, asked that question, if Alex wants to talk to me. I felt angry. Because, he doesn't want to talk to me. I felt hurt and angry because, I didn't feel like talking to him either. Up till now, they still so insensitive.
KT, passed the phone to Ar, and they start teasing me about me being single. (They don't know I am with Dear Dear) So guess what, Ar said? She says I can't forget him, that's why I broke up with J. I got super pissed. If she joked with someone like who don't take it into heart and don't believe. I won't mind.
But, to joke to such extend, and to a person whom I had a fling and didn't had a good ending. And who might think that is really true about what Ar says. I think is SUper insensitive.
Went down to M's chalet. Surprisingly. i still could face her with guilt free.
We were all reminiscing about the good old days in Coffee CLub. ANd we were teasing kelvin and Jia Miao . lol..
I stayed over to accompany M. ANd Soo Hoon came over to sleep at don't know what time..
The next day, we bladed and i fell many times. Seriously, at that time, I FeLt so insecure. I felt how come That M is able to do everything better than me. ANd she has everything better than me. Why did Dear Dear choose me instead.
I can tell you, I felt like crying many times. I felt like crying when M talks openly to Dear Dear, and smiling happily to herself. I feel like crying when I wanted to see Dear Dear, but I had to wait the next day and make sure that she is not alone, then I was able to go off.
I felt like crying when I missed Dear Dear so much and he was at her Chalet and I wasn't able to see him.
I felt like crying when I saw the photos, that she put up at Yahoo. But I am jealous about those photos where dear dear took close to her.
I can take the hurt buried inside, because of my guilt towards her.
BUt how long more do I have to wait?
-----------------------------------------------------
On the brighter note, Dear Dear accompanied me one whole day. I don't why, but i Just like feel like seeing and seeing without gettin sick of him. I like looking at his eyes and the sparks he gave me, for my eyes only.. ha ha..
I kinda make him angry yesterday, but estimating the time wrongly and promising him that i WON't be late.. I think i need to do something about myself liao.. BUt kind of glad that he's angry. NOt that I want to make him angry.
BEcause, i think in a relationship, bound to have ups and downs. So, i think my relationship has only been happy times together. The fact that he is angry, is part and parcel of a trial of a relationship and that only will make our relationship stronger.
Dear Dear and I went to eat Marina Bay steamboat. Fustrated with the service there. and we had to kill those live prawns. I feel so sad.. sobz...
We played archard and headed for Mr Bean and we sat and talked about our future. Today, it's been kind funny. I finally ran out of topic to talk to Dear Dear. And I went talking about The Chalet.... Well. I wasn't really happy about that mah...
And suddenly, I also realised that.. Between me and Dear dear, i can don't talk to him and still feel happy..
ha ha ..
going to sleep Liao..
And i finally finished part (a) of my assignment...
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