Jealousy

I kinda angry jealous with her.
Sometimes, I feel that I am "sharing" my bf with her. And the more I think of her blogging about me..
I feel disappointed and angry and I intended to spite her.
I don't get approval of my friends for doing the right thing, and everybody thinks if she react in this way, she can't be blame..
THen too bad, don't blame me for reacting back too..

SHe called early morning to wake Dear Dear up, but Dear Dear was bathing, After calling twice, I deleted her number. Any chance of her calling him these days, I will eliminate the chances..BUt in the end, Dear Dear call her, to ask about Starhub's number.. I think hers under Starhub.

And if she thinks that she get to spend Christmas with him. FAT Chance.
I already booked him on Christmas eve and Christmas... ha ha...

I was on msn with her.. ANd sentence, that I type, I felt i added venmon into it.
I was asking her, how she is going to spend Christmas, now Dear Dear is in Penang?

SHe replied that He would be back during Christmas. SO, what's does imply. I don't think I too sensitive liao..

And I think she might get a calling card. just for him.
WHAT the hell is she thinking.. I think she is a leach... for not letting go..
And you're asking me to put myself in her shoeS? verteshen?
FuCk it.. BEcause, I don't feel like it..

I already tolerated so long..
I don't think I wan to tolerate any second longer. Not after the way, she think less of me.

I wipe her every chance gettin close to him... DOn't blame me, I am only protecting myself.

Yes, JEsus asked me to forgive her. But, I just don't feel like sparing a thought for her.. BEcause, i been trying too hard to protect hers.. and ended up,she hurt mine..

I don't think i spiteing her. I just think I am just tired... for feeling guilty, for feeling wrong, for feeling everything, which bring me to edge of breaking down..

Besides, the friendship is no more, from the way, i starts to irks her. From the way, she feels bitter about me. Unless, she can find in her heart to forgive me.

sighh...
Nobody else but yourself to blame, for sorching yourself in the burning flame.
I wasn't the element of your ruined relationship.
Everything begins with the right timing, the right chemistry, the right spark to start fire.
That's how people end up together.
You ain't a fool for holding a pocket of hopes.
Yet, you forget that your pocket might be ripped , and hopes falls and fades away.
Hopes are gone,
You choose to catch and grasp any little left.
And you forget, the harder you grasp, the harder it will slipped from your hands.
And when tears replaced in your empty hands,
Just don't forget my hands are here to wipe your tears away.