wohooo

I am sure I am missed. Yes, I haven't been reading everybody's blog.My life is u have to ask me ah.For today, I am making it transparent.

HOw time flies. It came to a certain extent, I did not want to talk about it. I didn't want to speak about it. And people ask, I told one versions after another, just to brush them off.

Not that I told lies, just different varieties of truths. haha.

The only person whom I have aliasing with was Sharon and I told some to God.

THanks Sharon for being there. haha. Yes, Chris, I remember you were there too, thanks. haha

But, somewhat I felt I have changed. I am not too sure is for the better.

The feeling whereby, I dun care how pple sees me, I tell myself I am pretty. The fact that I am. (wahaha...)

I am wun be put down by anybody, because, I know that I am can achieve if I want too,

but for me, it takes a longer period than pple. I need affirmation on my back, you know.

Ade pats on Ade' back.

Maybe, I am not so good at academic but I love working. I feel that I am in power. Earning power, Spending power, investing power. I go through interviews with breeze, as I make impromptu answers that became a template for myself.

Like I say, I making my thoughts and life transparent.

I feel that I am no longer the useless person where I can't do anything.

And I feel I can do it. And I love the challenges of work, but not really academically.

I used to feel upset, when I lost my friendship with Jiamiao, though she hurt me and things like that. The way, she always write about some friends are here, although losing some. The way, she write about herself so victimised. I used to be angry and feel like telling the whole world, it wasn't like that. But, like Ronnie say, it would have stoop to her level.

HOwever, i put myself in her perspective and I wouldn't think I would be happy, but I could and have done better. Then I told God, I decided to forigive her. So, now, no matter how she pens to her advantage, it doesn't affects me at all... And i do feel happier with no grudge

To tell you the truth, I am glad she found her happiness. The way, I was happy for Alex when he was someone he likes.

I would be happy for Jack , if he married the one he loved.

But for JAck, I am not done totally healing my hurt yet.

BUt I making a mental list of whom hurt me before. The funny thing, they dun matter anymore.

Because, I am doing well and living a life which not bad ah. So there.

Part two on next entry.