As for my love life,
Those who have known me, would have known by now.
But these days, I just don't feel like answering. The things you say might always give people a false impression. Not that I bother much about it, but they are coming from the people whom are my friends.
I am affected because I know my guy is good. Only when I am upset, I choose to tell you the situation. When he is good, I choose not to say, because I feel weird about telling. Part of me is Asian, and traditional and old-fashioned.
I am demanding, because, there are expectations. Expectations of him doing out of the norm, just for me. And when he doesn't, I feel angry. So this is me and how I measure my worth. Because, he is not the verbal kind of guy. And I don't get my guys to tell me how much I mean to them. Because, somehow, I date guys who are non-expressive.
So, it happens that people (my friends) deemed my relationship doomed. And it fucking hurts. Because, I have believed in myself. And I thought, they were there.
Sometimes, I need to take a step back to think on what I must do for him not to take me for granted, as all humans are borne with such naturale. When I realise, I took his initiative for granted.
But, to this very day, he makes me smile.
And send me to church, though he doesn't believe in HIM.
I give him credit for the times, where he planned his activities during my church services, just to wait for me, and pick me up afterwards. I feel great pride. I really do.
Btw, yes, I am into him and I believed he feels the same.
SO, no worries for you people.
BYE.
Those who have known me, would have known by now.
But these days, I just don't feel like answering. The things you say might always give people a false impression. Not that I bother much about it, but they are coming from the people whom are my friends.
I am affected because I know my guy is good. Only when I am upset, I choose to tell you the situation. When he is good, I choose not to say, because I feel weird about telling. Part of me is Asian, and traditional and old-fashioned.
I am demanding, because, there are expectations. Expectations of him doing out of the norm, just for me. And when he doesn't, I feel angry. So this is me and how I measure my worth. Because, he is not the verbal kind of guy. And I don't get my guys to tell me how much I mean to them. Because, somehow, I date guys who are non-expressive.
So, it happens that people (my friends) deemed my relationship doomed. And it fucking hurts. Because, I have believed in myself. And I thought, they were there.
Sometimes, I need to take a step back to think on what I must do for him not to take me for granted, as all humans are borne with such naturale. When I realise, I took his initiative for granted.
But, to this very day, he makes me smile.
And send me to church, though he doesn't believe in HIM.
I give him credit for the times, where he planned his activities during my church services, just to wait for me, and pick me up afterwards. I feel great pride. I really do.
Btw, yes, I am into him and I believed he feels the same.
SO, no worries for you people.
BYE.
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