updates

I know i have been procastinating lately.

My life is a boring one.

Except, i can slowly find myself changing. ANd hopefully for the better.

I have been hanging out with Sharon lately, pouring out my woes to her.
Her poor ears.. ha ha..

My relationship with ROnnie has been a up and down one. The arguement about our relationship in summary.
He has not enough time for Ade, and ade is out of job and squeezing money out of that poor guy.

I guess, a guy like ROnnie needs alot space. So does Ade.

I spend a lot of time, explaining quality and quantity time.

It was bad enough, till ROnnie wants to break up with Ade. Right then, Ade felt herself pathetic and disgusted to the core. SHe became to self loathe, and reconsidered this whole relationship, if it was really worth.

At times, she felt that this r/s is worth it? Even mommy asked if Ade is happy.
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Anniversary happen during the whole event.

A plate of dead snails

Take a closer look, a snail on the bread

Where's the snail?.. Dig dig.

Do you want some???

I have this fetish eating escargots... yummy.....
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And I also realised that I hate people pressuming things about me. It makes me vulnerable.
How much do you really know me?
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My short-fused temper never changed.

And I am a freaking planner. Damn it... I always have things planned it my head mentally.
I have expectations and always doesn't meet. Maybe, that explain the irritation I get easily.
I have high expectations for service staffs that should build up the reputation of the company.

I tend to act snobbish in front of Ang-mos. Don't ask me why.

22 yrs of my life, I finally know what I want. Thanks to Ronnie for triggering that.

I guess, my Christian walk also help me build self-confidence, less judgemental,

I still struggling to know what I am, to place a self-identity on myself. But, I do get some of it figure out.
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Today, I learn to TRUST, an issue that I have been wondering if I am able to do. I guess, it was the incident that gave me that learning and turning point.

I Trust you.

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Christmas and my birthday are coming, actually I want a huge present from all my friends,

that is ' Time'.

I am kinda gonna ask you people out, we eat at some cheap but fancy cafe( can find that ornot?)

So, once in my life, spare me, the "I can't make it blah blah.. " coz the whole day will be for me.. ha ha..
I already telling you people in advance.