Unwanted and Lonely- part I

Back home to a unfamilar shell .
Dr Shepard's words to Mederith on Grey's anatomy:" If your love for her is strong, SHE WILL be right here for you."
And he is back with the wife, put my mood way down under.
I know I haven't been bloggin.

So these are series of events that happened in a unseqential order.

WHen you say :" I call you back." Do you know I reallie wait? I've been waiting all 23 yrs of my life. Waiting...
Why do I have to try so hard, proving I can be a better person. When everyone else fails? Where's the accountability? Where's the responsibility.
What am I supposed to do? What do I next?
Snobbish kills personality. WHy do I have to spare for your feelings? When u never do for mine?
Why do I have to be kind, when u kill my patience.
Why do people think they own the whole world, they own nothing.

Oh mighty Lord. Why do I feel so empty. I know the Walk with you will be difficult. But why do I feel so void?
You said:" Ask and it will be given to you:seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. For everone who asks recives; he who seeks find; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7: 7-8

I bloggin part two now..