Emoing
I took on a rocky road. This time those feelings piled up , no huge area of carpet could covered it up.
Why I refused to tell anybody, because of those harsh judgement which I can't comprehend. It got pretty ridiculous at times, when you tried to explain, they are stuck with rigid mentality. I got pretty suffocated, so I stopped.
The job took a toil on me, becuase it was exhausting making it right with the clients. No doubt I was happier.
I spent alot time on my job. I think things got overwhelming. I was stucked. Before marriage, I wanted my lifetime dedicated to my hubsand. The more I spent with him, the more I felt apart, thinking the only logical thing was focus on my job. It helps after a while, but I was pretty empty inside.
The thing that helped kept me insane, was those meaningful conversations, that makes life go on. I think my world came crashing down, I found out it will come to a halt one day.
Took a weekend off everything, spoke to my husband. you know what's most comforting thing, he lying falling asleep beside me, and we are able to stand the test of time.
I don't think anybody from a outside point of view has a better or clearer vision.
They don't see what I see.
Perhaps, they don't see it. I think I see the bigger picture better than most people.
Emoing doesn't stop, my heart comes to a peace for this current point. :)
Ade
Why I refused to tell anybody, because of those harsh judgement which I can't comprehend. It got pretty ridiculous at times, when you tried to explain, they are stuck with rigid mentality. I got pretty suffocated, so I stopped.
The job took a toil on me, becuase it was exhausting making it right with the clients. No doubt I was happier.
I spent alot time on my job. I think things got overwhelming. I was stucked. Before marriage, I wanted my lifetime dedicated to my hubsand. The more I spent with him, the more I felt apart, thinking the only logical thing was focus on my job. It helps after a while, but I was pretty empty inside.
The thing that helped kept me insane, was those meaningful conversations, that makes life go on. I think my world came crashing down, I found out it will come to a halt one day.
Took a weekend off everything, spoke to my husband. you know what's most comforting thing, he lying falling asleep beside me, and we are able to stand the test of time.
I don't think anybody from a outside point of view has a better or clearer vision.
They don't see what I see.
Perhaps, they don't see it. I think I see the bigger picture better than most people.
Emoing doesn't stop, my heart comes to a peace for this current point. :)
Ade
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