You

Today, I wore a weary heart, but upon a weary heart has certain peace.

I had misunderstood his intentions.

I never like the idea of being a needy gf, to those few who already knew. I also pride myself for getting more emmotionally indepedent.

I did not like people to think me as a person who loves the boyfriend so much, yet the bf only love her alittle or less. Don't ask me why. Perhaps, was the image thing, I guess.

So in the quest, of proving that, I like to be affectionate with him,in front of his friends at times, but get angry at his opposed reaction.

Today, I asked him. I thought I got it, he doesn't like his friends to think of him, as a guy being controlled by his gf. It was the whole pride issue thing.

He told me something else, and I realised it wasn't about him, he was he trying to protect my image. He doesn't want my image to be projected as a needy gf, the way they would say some else's gf.

Suddenly I understood his intentions. Something changed over that instance.
The intentions behind his actions.

The subtle actions, which I couldn't understand at first, falls into place.

Do you believe mutual love. I do.

And yes, being there all the time, makes one take another for granted. Space issues get in the way of couples. But, when one in is love, the another half will be in the mind of the earlier and vice versa.

Trust is hard to place, especially when comes to guys. However, suspicion and tight reign doesn't help either.
So trust.

God makes one for the another, just how he made Eve for Adam.

No more comparisons, no more how they look at us.
I learn how to grow up.

And I hope you will see me through..